It was a multimedia performance, about the generations of women in my family,
from my grandmothers (Frances & Gertrude) to my mother (Adrianne) to me.
I was in a sense, exploring how these women in my family, had an impact on me: emotionally, spiritually and my development from girl to woman.
In creating this performance, I spent alot of time thinking about my grandmothers and my mother and how our paths were similar and different.
One area i kept hovering around theme wise, for my grandmothers, was the area of DREAMS.
I wondered whether my grandmothers felt fulfillment in their hearts and their dreams and visions for their life? What did they want to become? I do remember asking them and hearing about their fantasies and wishes but it was not a very detailed response. I felt like maybe they either had not given it very much thought or had never been asked or did not dare say. I felt a sadness sometimes when i was around them as if there was something missing for them. My grandmother's generation defined achievement differently than my mother's and mine. I realized very quickly as a girl speaking with them that, finding a husband and making a family was achievement enough. I did however also feel their judgement, awe and fear towards my mother and her choice to build both family and career. This had an impact on me as I witnessed this, realizing that women could judge each other and pass along fear. This did also have a positive effect, because my mother and I made a conscious effort to evolve our relationship, into a very supportive mother daughter team, where we were mindful of judgement and fear based thinking.
I loved my grandmothers and always wanted more time with them than we had. I valued their stories and link to my history and ancestry. As a woman today, the artist and activist sides of myself have become very interested in exposing our fears of aging, how we treat the elderly and the value of age and intelligence. Thanks for reading! This blog post is a part of the Grandmother Power Blogging Campaign. Join and write your grandmother blog by clicking here!